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Current art and craft projects

Here is an update on my current projects!

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This is my first completed art project, an acrylic painting on canvas paper, it’s called Fashion Diva and is available for sale on both bluethumb and on my etsy store. This is a painting depicting my love of fashion and art.

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I am also working on another acrylic painting on canvas paper, which I am calling Broken wing. For me this depicts my struggle against the outside world. It shows my struggles with other people and how I feel broken down by my bad experiences with people and how they used and emotionally manipulated me etc.

So the angel represents me as how I see myself as innocent being wanting to be friends and help people and the broken wing and grey background is to represent the sadness. The broken wing  represents how the badness in life in general and in people that breaks my heart.

This is how I am using my art to get out some of my negative emotions and thoughts, crating art that depicts how I feel and my thoughts has been a lot of fun and reduces me stress and anxiety to work on things that I enjoy. This is how I have been continuing my self therapy if letting go negativity from inside.

I am also working on creating art journals so I can continue creating smaller works of art and to include quotes and affirmations to help reduce my stress and other symptoms on days I feel bad.

How do you use your creativity, do you use it to relieve stress and does it help reduce negativity for you?

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Various works in progress

Ok so now that I am up and around again, I thought I’d just post a few pictures of my newest projects.

The first one is a painting I started just yesterday using one of the exercises from my self art therapy ebook “Creative Happiness”. I chose to try my exercise in painting my emotions out in an image using weather or nature to show emotions. It’s called “Tornado out at sea”…

Somehow it did help to start painting in darker colours for the tornado, it helps to get out some of the inner negative emotions to some extent. It also kind of feel good to be painting something that more accurately reflects my inner emotions, rather then simply painting something to be pretty.

The other two are two girl images, one is a fashion girl image and the other is a ballerina.

Mostly for the last few weeks I have been trying to paint with Acrylic paints and using the images and the painting strokes to try to paint out my negative emotions. It seems to work as long as my symptoms are not at the very worst, once I am too depressed I tend to steer away from painting however as my hands are not very steady when I am too anxious and I seem to tend to muck up the paintings if I force myself to paint.

I have so far enjoyed working on the tornado image and plan to do more artwork based on my own exercises, both to try to get the benefit of the art therapy itself and I found it fun to try to express my emotions with the art. I will continue posting any other art work I create and will try to focus on the ones related to my art therapy book exercises.

Kids Drama’s

I was going to call this post “Potty Training Drama’s” but I didn’t want to scare anyone from reading the post!

Ok, so I am just starting to “properly” try training our three year old son, it’s driving me crazy and it’s only been two and a half days. I had no idea that following a little kid around the house trying to clean up little messes would be so stressful.

So far we have him happy to sit once in a while on the potty or toilet, at least he’s not screaming about sitting on them now. However we can’t get him to actually use them properly, he seems upset with the idea of doing his mess anywhere but in the nappy. I’ve managed to get him to pee in the potty just a few times but he always has very strong reaction and sometimes cries.

We tried to get him used to wearing the underwear as the first day we put them on him he wasn’t too happy it, must miss the feeling of the nappy I suppose. After a while he was ok wearing the underwear but seems to think it should work like nappies and just does his business. Every time I got him siting on the toilet or the potty he’s ok with it for a short time as long as he doesn’t pee.

Ok, so today I thought I’d try keeping the nappy on him but I will try to get him to sit on the potty about one or two times an hour. He’s sitting on it once in a while himself with his pants on. I just gotta catch him and pull the pants and nappy down and see if I can get him used to the idea of just peeing in the potty once in a while first. Maybe if I can get him used to the idea of peeing somewhere else besides the nappy we can get something started and then move slowly to the idea of using less nappies per day and move on from there to not wearing nappies?

The main problem is that he randomly lets little spurts of pee every so often, especially when he eats, why he pees when he puts something in his mouth I have no idea and it’s going to be the hard habit to change.

Any ideas would be lovely at this point as I’m thoroughly confused and stressed out… What to do about teaching him with less stress, I really could do with less extra stress in my life?

 

Why I don’t totally give up on my handcraft activities & my newest project!

Hi, it’s been a while since I posted consistently. As usual my mental health, family activities and family issues keep getting in the way, but health and family always comes first for me!

I completed a new junk journal for my etsy store, and yes I still do have a small store, even though it has less then 20 items listed! I don’t allow myself to completely give up on it, even though I only get one sale for every five or so months it’s up there!

It’s helps so much for uplifting and keeping my mental health in control to know that I am at least trying to give it a go. It helps to have at least one activity that I actually don’t give up on totally… Almost everything else I’ve ever tried in life I always give up on or have been asked to move on from other people. There is just something about knowing that I am still trying to find a way to make the etsy store work that helps keeps me grounded mentally. It helps to know that I have at least one thing in life that I have not yet run away from. Even though the store is not exactly very popular, even just those one or two sales every once in a while help to make me extremely happy and I feel as though I am at least achieving a little of something.

That in a life with mental health, is actually quite a big thing, to have something that helps to make a person feel useful even if only sometimes, those days when you do get a positive outcome even if it’s spaced out, help to make you feel good.

I can’t seem to win…

I’ve never been good at getting along with people, it seems that my whole life I struggled to get people to like me. I’ve never seemed to know the right way to behave, how much and when to talk etc, or never known the right things to say.

It seems I still don’t know what to say and when, which topics are ok to discuss and I don’t seem to know enough about the outside world to be able to have enough different topics to discuss with anyone. I deliberately stopped watching news on tv a few years ago as I found all the reports about crime and accidents depressing.

There was too much news about how badly people were behaving against one another and too much blood and death going on in the world. Not watching enough tv can also be a bad thing also though as you also miss out on all the general and good news. It can then be hard to know what to talk about with people, as you then dont know the general world news.

I can’t get along with my husband much as we just don’t have hardly any interests etc in common, so we don’t have much topics we can discuss with each other. If I mention any of my personal hobbies like art or craft too much he thinks I’m doing too much hobbies and he thinks I’m neglecting the house duties etc. If I talk too much about my parents or other relatives too much he thinks I care too much about them and then he thinks it means that I care more about my other relatives more then him or our son. I can never seem to know the limits of when and how much to do anything in order to make anyone happy with me.

That’s all I know to talk about though, I start talking to him more about the house and what daily tasks I have completed for that day thinking that will make him happier talking to me, but then he says I don’t need to list him all I’ve done that day etc. I try to talk to him about our son more, about what we do during the day etc but then he usually always finds something to tell me off about as I always manage to forget something I should have done with our son etc. So then I tend to always feel that I am better off not to talk too much about our son as I always manage to get myself told off because I manage my time with our son so badly.

If  I talk to my Mum or any of my friends or relatives more then a few times a week and my husband know’s about it he tells me off again that he thinks I care more about my parents then I do about him and our son. If I see anyone more then a few times a month, again my husband blames me for caring more about other’s then I care about him and our son.

Half the time I definitely feel like I just don’t know what I’m doing in my attempts to communicate with people, I just know how to get along with people…

It’s not a nice feeling, I get too lonely if I void communicating with people too much, yet I also end up regretting most of my efforts to try to communicate with people as I just can’t seem to get along with anyone for more then five minutes. Then I end up questioning who I am and whether I’m actually a good person or not, I feel like I must be one of the worst people if I can’t manage to have any good normal conversations with anyone…

I just can’t ever seem able to get along with anyone and it makes me more sad and depressed…

Obsessed – Or Is Craft Therapy a Necessity?

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Am I more content to work on my online Etsy store then I am in talking to my family and friends in real life?

I just came back online again after a few days trying to abstain from coming online to test a theory of my husbands and someone on a Facebook group that I was chatting to a few days ago. There is some belief that a feeling of needing to communicate online and trying to use art or craft, to try to get your name even a little “known” is like a symptom of mental illness.

There seems to be a belief that being online too much is bad for people, in some ways if it becomes too much of an obsession, yes it could hamper a person. It could get in the way of the person getting more important daily chores done or could affect how much communication and attention the person gives other people in the real world.

Sometimes because people you chat to online aren’t really in front of you it can feel easier to communicate with them as there is less possibility of being hurt or embarrassed. People seem more attentive on line as they give themselves more time to concentrate better on what they online, people seem less distracted by other issues or people as they concentrate on their online conversations.

People are more inclined to think twice before they post or chat online as it’s most often done in the written format. Therefore people you communicate with online may seem nicer and more polite.

My communications online and other online activities in trying to get my artwork noticed are more therapeutic, my communications with people in real life are often riddled with pain and misunderstanding. What are we to make of this? Is there any possible meaning or reason as to why some of us really do feel more happier communicating and making friends online?

Busy as an artistic Beaver…

Busy Beaver ArtistFor quite some time I focussed only on creating Junk Journals. I was quite lost in making as many junk journals as I could to improve my hand craftsmanship so that I could try to sell them to get some money to use for more art supplies. As with any new artistic and creative endeavour it didn’t go very well. I don’t have enough friends, I don’t know how to promote my artwork properly etc…

I have been enjoying the process however, and it has been reducing my levels of stress and anxiety, which is always my main goal in creating any artwork. Achieving a more relaxed and happy state of mind, has always been my main first priority when I try to create any artwork or craft piece.

Very recently, I started multitasking on my artwork and started branching out and working more on my normal artwork in stead of focussing solely on junk journals.

I have started working on some ideas for creating more artwork on canvas and started doing some research to start getting inspiration for my first developmental sketches etc. I plan on creating grouped themed art pieces that potentially could be sold. Again, for me the main focus is to have fun and to reduce as much stress from my life as possible, but there’s certainly no harm if I’m able somehow to gain some income from my artwork…

Current projects and art collaborations I have become involved in include:

  • Facebook-Youtube Art collaborations, which I believe will help get my artwork noticed.
  • Youtube channel input, I’m working towards starting to post on my Youtube channel again and hopefully I’ll find ways to continue posting regularly. I hope to post video’s at least once a fortnight, as opposed to never posting…
  • Working on ideas for products to add to my Etsy store, developing product ideas and prototypes etc.